Me when I'm alone

Left to my own Devices

Let me check again,
Just one more time.
Maybe I got a like
Even a comment?
Maybe this email
Has something
In the Inbox
I just cleared

No, not yet.
But maybe this one does?
It's ok I'll check again
In 30 minutes
Oh what the hell
Why wait,
I can just check now.

Let me check again

This Emptiness

Fill me up with all the pain
Don't let me sit here, empty
Let me bleed black blood
And put the fire to consume
my flesh, but never
let me sit here, empty

Let's argue, bicker and fight
And never agree
Let's tear each other up and
leave nothing intact
But don't let's sit in silence

I can't stand this empty, empty place
My lungs don't even fill up any more
My polite smile masks my
numb insides

I don't
I don't want
I can't do anything
To stop

This
Emptiness