Friday, October 24, 2014

Is the Girl Who is Walking

Is The Girl Who is Walking

The streets of New York
Awake to the chasing movements of her feet
Which are placed methodically one after the other
On the concrete without letter her lift off
And soar through the clouds which graze
Our dreams of a beyond beyond that place
Where everything and nothing at once are
Conceived and to which everything and nothing
Will return,

Does she know that her steps are not steps
But leaps which take her there
While the rooted trees stand firmly
Without compromise knowing that
To break their twines would be to lose hold
Of all that they know
And to certainly die,

But what is death but another of the rooms
Which we will never enter
Because as soon as we turn the knob
We cease to be
Perhaps it's not as bad

As we dream. Do dreams foreshadow waking life
Or are they simply storms of electrons
Catching each other on blazing fire replicating
At random the shapes and colors that fill
Our perceptions, leaving the dreamer
At the mercy of her brain to connect them
In a pattern which only makes sense

To she who has dreamt it and keeps it
In her heart as she walks

The streets of New York

Tuesday, June 3, 2014

Looking back and looking forward

I have exciting plans this summer, and my friend Ian suggested that I log my experiences on my little, old, and nearly forgotten blog. So since I haven't posted an update in a while, I guess I should fill you in on the events of this past year before we look ahead to the summer.

I finished my second year at CCNY, and somehow managed to maintain a 4.0 average (I honestly don't know how I did that because towards the end of the Spring semester I was more than a little burned out and turned in work that was definitely not my best). I did this while working full time as an assistant manager at Oren's Daily Roast, teaching Sunday School, and working as a research assistant for one of my professors. As you can imagine, my time was pretty tightly scheduled, but I managed to squeeze in a couple of fun things, like taking a traditional Arab Vocals class at Alwan for the Arts.

I was accepted as a New York Life Fellow at the Colin Powell Center for Leadership and Service, which essentially means that for the next two years I'll be doing additional course work centered around public policy. The fellowship comes with a sizable scholarship, which means I probably won't have to work full time and can focus a little more on my school work (and have more fun). I'm really excited about this fellowship because it is a network of amazing people. The contacts I gain and the mentoring I receive will be immensely helpful as my career path begins to take shape.

I am so grateful to everyone in my life who helped me get through this year. There were times when I felt like I was running around with a blindfold over my eyes, so I'm sure that I haven't taken the time to thank you yet. Rashell, you were an amazing roommate who let me complain about whatever annoying things were happening, while reminding me to relax a little and trust the universe. Elizabeth, thank you for being the amazing sister that you are and for listening to me hyperventilate on the phone when I didn't think I could finish a paper. Julia, you are my one good friend at CCNY, so thank you for being a great study buddy and absurdity-observation partner. I'm so proud of you for graduating, and I'm glad that you'll still be on and around campus. Thank you, Maryah, for being a ray of sunshine, for being an Arabic conversation buddy, and for writing the letter of recommendation for the fellowship (which was obviously the reason I got it). Thank you ASYA community for being a magical source of new roommates and subletters. And of course I have to thank the amazing three-year olds who I teach every Sunday for reminding me of the simplicity of fun and joy.

So what are my summer plans? I'm going to good-old Akron, Ohio for two whole months. I have an internship at the International Institute of Akron, where I'll be assisting with refugee resettlement. I don't quite know what to expect yet, or exactly what kind of work I'll be doing. But I'm looking forward to meeting the families that I'll be working with and to learning about their cultures. I'll try to keep you posted throughout the summer!

Ohio here I come!

Friday, February 21, 2014

Poem February 21

I'm unzipping my jacket and letting down my hair
when I see a mannequin wink at me through a window
on Lexington Avenue. Yesterday she wore a garment of
darkly died wool but today she sports a
soft pastel dress and sandals.

She asks me what it's like to be walking
on this first mild day after so many cold,
how the wind feels against my face,
and what I smell as I breathe it in.

"Freedom," I whisper, "and despite the
city lights, being aware of the
infinite cosmos around us.